I was busying myself trying to create something (a website) that represented the essence of my work and ended up sending myself into a mini burn out.
Oops.
I created a lot of drama, or rather, we could call it comparison, indecisiveness, perfectionism, the list can go on, instead of just creating what I intuitively knew that I loved. What felt like me.
Too much energy “out there”, not enough tuning INto my own being.
I was planning on launching right after my birthday. I was determined to start my 43rd year off right! So I decided to enjoy the day by going with a friend to the spa and getting back to it on the following Monday.
What happened instead was that I slowed down enough that my body crashed and I got sick with covid for the first time. In all transparency I don’t know for sure if it was covid, but all the symptoms seemed to align. Plus, the fact that I was flat on my back, going through whole boxes of kleenex in a day seemed to tell me this wasn’t your run of the mill cold or flu.
While I was recovering I had a lot of time to reflect on what had happened, so I tuned into the energy of what I was feeling –
It wasn’t WHAT I was doing that burned me out, it was the energy I was holding within and around it that burned me out.
Turns out I was caught in a subconscious story of not good enough, so I felt like I needed to make everything I did “perfect”, because the story said that who I am and what I love would just not do.
And if I had stayed on that track and continually bought into that story, I would have created a website that was incongruent with who I am. It would’ve radiated “a mix of random people on the internet” instead of the beauty, essence and wisdom that is truly me.
Being yourself in a world of conformity is not an easy task. It requires letting go of the stories that hold the energy that ultimately do not align with who we really are.
THAT’S what I want for you.
To create a life that radiates the TRUTH of who you are, no matter how uncomfortable you have to be in the process. To choose people, opportunities and things from the true beauty and essence within you, not from the false stories you’re holding onto.
When you choose artwork for your living room, the wallpaper for your bathroom, or the fabric on your sofa, there's energy behind it. When you choose a specific job, or a person to spend your life with, there's energy behind it – and, it's affecting all areas of your life.
That’s why it's so important to get clear on the energy that is running through our minds and bodies, because it informs how we create things in the world. And then the world (or our homes and environments) mirror back to us that same energy.
We are either in the flow or blocking the flow of being in alignment with who we really are.
Environmental healing is a tool to help us get out of those stories and energy – It’s a practice of observing how the energy from your inner world is showing up in your outer world, shining a light on what needs to be healed and transformed.
So, without further ado, I invite you to check out my new online home. It was a true labour of love and my heartfelt offering to you.
Love,
Bre-An